But now… you, you’re just a history in rust. Can’t help but to be drawn back in to memories of people from my past. “The past” is such a weird thing… the past is the past but the people that grow on you somehow remain in the present. Or at least that’s how I feel. Just can’t seem to shake certain moments from my mind, good or bad. Music does a good job of reminding me of certain small blips of my life.
I miss certain weird things about past relationships like houses, apartments, smells, and space. I miss my teal wall in my old Michigan apartment. I miss the smell of clean laundry constantly at my Chicago one. I miss Brandon’s upstairs room that felt like an attic in the most perfect way in the house he rented with David and other friends of ours from Michigan. I miss Oxfordshire. I miss the snow there… it was lovely in the English countryside. I miss all of the giant spaces I’ve rented in Michigan because they all witnessed me grow and I feel like a space can tell such a story…
This post turned in to a journal entry of sorts. I like when that happens because when I write posts I just let the words flow naturally… I try not to plan. I just let my mind think and for me since I am not a writer I think it’s the best way.
This stream of consciousness came after I recalled a band called Do Make Say Think and listened to them for the first time in years. One of my favorite songs by them is called “You, You’re a history in rust”. It’s a great track, give it a listen. I used to listen to them in Michigan and it’s a great band to just listen to in the background while doing work because it’s mostly all instrumental. I’m very much in to lyrics so I find it hard to love instrumental bands but this band… they got me. Love them.
So this look that I wore yesterday to brunch is also reminiscent for me, it reminds me a lot of how I used to be in Michigan. Wearing camouflage in the midwest is a given, but I paired it with a few classic things and it just made me feel cozy and at home. One of the best things about clothing is when one wears a certain thing it can make them feel a certain way, just like a song. I could picture myself among the trees up north in Michigan in this outfit. This dress is from Free People and I just want to rave about it for a moment because it’s literally the most comfortable dress I think I own and it’s so adorable and fits just perfect. Will be one of my go-to dresses and I can’t wait to see how many ways I can style this baby.
What makes you reminisce? I’d love to hear in the comments.
Photographs taken by Noelle Downing